will i am's delayed diary

During a casual dinner meet-up, a gay friend suddenly announced that he was getting married--  TO. A. WOMAN.  えーーー?！ One friend incredulously exclaimed, "You can mehhhhh?!". Apparently he can. His choice really. And his wife is in the dark about his past.  No wonder he was very quiet in the gay circle of late, and seemed to be distant.   Guess it was part of his plan to start with a clean slate so to say.  In the coming weeks, he did introduce us to his wife. KH and I 'behaved' in front of her.  Only a few close friends were invited to the wedding, and we didn't spread the news.  Really hope that things will work out, and not turn out to be a mistake for both parties.  Note: 202307

In my working career, I never really took a proper break. My new employer wasn't pushy about my joining date, so I gave myself four weeks of rest to properly detox. Thought about bringing my mum somewhere for a holiday, but she was very engrossed with taking care of my nephews with it being my sister's super busy year end period. Didn't do anything special, just some random things: Dim sum breakfast with mum and her taichi buddies. Fix my neck at the chiropractor's. Attend church meetings. Go on dates with the hubby. Cafe hopping with neighbours. Bumming at home. Perhaps I should have flew somewhere just for the heck of it. But I am pretty content with just spending quiet time in KL. 

There's a Tealive  located in the Petronas station in my neighbourhood. Because it's just a stone's throw from the school entrance makes it an extremely strategic location. Secondary school students swarm the place after the last bell. While waiting for their school bus or their parents to pick them up, they get a cup of bubble tea. Very different when compared with my past. Never would have spent MYR6.90 ( assuming the cheapest option ) on a drink! Didn't have that spending power. And of course back then, there wasn't such a thing as bubble tea. Wouldn't even contemplate going to the mamak for a drink. By default, it was the school canteen. Back then, splurging was getting keropok lekor AND ais krim ikat . LOL.  Bubble tea will be what Little Monster and Big Monster will reminisce about in the future. 

Ever since the start of the pandemic, I had stopped taking the LRT and MRT to work because Prasarana did not do any crowd control. Basically, once you're in the train, you are at risk of being crowded in. If you follow @askrapidkl on Twitter, you can see passengers Tweeting about "no social distancing?", and the official answer would be "we are running at full capacity, and it is the responsibility of the passenger to maintain social distance". I know the reality is that those inside won't get out because the train is too packed. And those outside will still board if the train is already like a can of sardines. So, it's basically ride at your own risk. Since I have the option of driving, I started doing that. And the good thing is, I could share the parking because I have a colleague who stays nearby, and we are actually on alternating teams. At the end of every week, we would pass each other the parking disc. But driving definitely comes its own set of ...

After months of being bed-ridden due to a stroke, my uncle ( mum's eldest sister's husband ) passed away at his home at Bagan Sungai Burung. Heard that it was due to an infection from a bed sore. Quite a shocker. When we got the news from my cousin, we immediately arranged for a trip to the fishing village. The Tribe went along too. Thanks to my Airbnb Superhost perks, I booked free lodging at Sungai Besar. The place was spacious and could fit 10 adults. When we arrived at the wake, the Taoist rituals were already ongoing. While waiting for the intermission, we ate dinner at the wake. In line with the kampung style, much food was prepared for guests. Right after dinner, hot fish porridge and fried bihun with curry chicken was served, together with steamed bao, kuih, loh mai gai , and siew bao . Many ate and chatted, while some had a boisterous gambling session with dominoes. The rituals were performed in Teochew, and I was surprised to see that they had a LED board...

Nearly two weeks after I ordered my spectacles, they were finally ready for collection. Right after work, I jumped off at IOI Puchong Jaya LRT station and walked over to the mall. Would definitely take some getting used to the new pair. Had a slight feeling of floating. And the reading power wasn't very noticeable. All that aside, I was pretty psyched with the new bookish look. Most importantly, the weight of the frame wasn't a problem at all. Maybe I wasn't suited to usual nose pads that came with rimless frames. Yay! On my way out, I was stopped by a Indian chap who asked me for money. He gave a story that his wallet was stolen, and a 'Good Samaritan' gave him a lift to the police station to make a report, and subsequently dropped him off at IOI Mall. To 'substantiate' his story, he produced a web page print out of his 'police report' with a weird URL at the footer. Another strategy he employed was to praise the Chinese as kind-hearted ( in his...

During my Brunei trip, I actually made a major decision on my health-- I started taking Nu Skin ageLOC TR90 . The TR90 programme is Nu Skin's answer of over-hauling one's body and keeping one young through gene expression sience. KH took it a few months ago and I was very impressed by the results: KH chucked his size 34 pants for size 30. I had to go shopping with him several times after I noticed that his clothes were fitting him badly, but hey that's a hubby's job. KH completely shed his pear-shaped physique. That actually means that I no longer can sleep on his tummy, but I'm totally fine with that. KH had become more energetic, able to stay out late with being cranky. I also find that he no longer gets hangry attacks.  KH regained the 'sharp' face shape of his youth. It's like kissing the him from ten years ago. In terms of numbers on the Karada scan, KH's body age and visceral fat have both dropped dramatically.  Basically, the programm...

With KH staying over, I got a sneak peek of a future of  us living together. We would wake up at the same time, shower together, and get ready for work. I would have breakfast together with him, and then walk to my office. In the evening, we would have dinner together before heading back home. Then we would shower, and get into bed. Skank then sleep.  A simple routine, but a blissful one. Here's a few food finds that KH and I made during the week-long routine: 1) Steamed fish and Clams in Superior Soup at 易生發海鮮飯檔 . A random restaurant that we found on a rainy evening. In a part of town that we never usually venture to. Good food with gruff service. 2) Beef Pho, Chicken Pho, and Spring Rolls at Wonton and Pho , Happy Garden. A new addition to the row of restaurants and cafes there. Seems to be fertile ground for new establishments. I wasn't impressed with the pho ( but the homemade chili sauce is good ), but I have praise for the spring rolls. Fresh ingredients, grea...

Too soon, just way too soon to lose a valuable member of the BFF. Though silent, you were always bursting with creativity. Never quite delved beneath the  surface of your happy-go-lucky demeanour to discover what turmoil lived there. Your departure has truly left a void that cannot be ignored. F, may you find peace returned to nature and the heavens. R.I.P.

Unlike myself, KH is quite casual about his sexuality in the workplace. He often tells me his coming out stories to random colleagues. And he has several sisters at the office. Just the other day, he introduced me to CP over lunch at Baba Nyonya by Sambal Chilli , Avenue K. The restaurant replaces Swensen's which was never popular at that location. We ordered some dishes-- Kapitan curry chicken, omelette, and sambal okra. Taste-wise it was quite good, but the price is a little on the high side for the portion that we got. Anyway, the star of the lunch was his colleague, not the food. He had plenty of stories to tell. An insight into the younger generation of gays. Good to hear that while he was in school, homosexuality wasn't an issue at all. The straight boys weren't threatened at all and seemed to love indulging in some sexual ambiguity as well. Perhaps, this is only true in the big cities. Such an interesting childhood he had with much relationship drama and sexual e...

Sunday didn't quite turn out like I expected it. Went to early mass with SK and went to have breakfast at Chow Yang. Thought of Yu Ai's seafood noodles, but they actually don't open in the morning, so we ate at Super Kitchen instead. Immediately rushed home to work. Did a short accounting of the outstanding items and found around ninety even after I spent three hours revising the proposal. Due to the gummy weather, I worked in the nude. Can scratch that off my bucket list. I sent out my second draft and told myself in Cartman's voice, "Screw you guys, I'm going out for lunch". Of course I get dressed before heading out to a neighbourhood shop for some chicken rice. Disappointing to say the least. Hardly any meat at all for MYR5.80. Its definitely on my blacklist now. SK scheduled a Japping session at Senjyu in BVII with KH, #BF, Brian and Lifebook. Guess Bangsar is on the terrorist alert list with armed military men patrolling the night market ( n...

When you go out on a date, are GSC and TGV ( or even MBO or Lotus ) high on your list of places to go? Is going to the movies your idea of spending quality time together? I'm quite impartial to that activity. I think of it as two people watching the same movie in the dark. Once you walk out of the hall, you get to discuss the movie a little. Did you like it? Was the dialogue annoying? Were the effects amazing? Did you cry? Was it funny? Which scene did you find to be the coolest? But KH on the other hand, loves bringing me to the movies. When the lights go out, he goes into action. If he senses that I'm cold, he would rub my hands. He would give my hand a squeeze if a romantic scene appears. My nipple would get a tweak if he's feeling cheeky. Or he would put his hand on my lap or brush my arms just to make a connection. Sometimes when he doesn't understand what's going on, he would whisper in my ear. I wonder if he would administer a hand job or blow job if we get...

What are the odds of bumping into your primary school classmate while shopping in Suria KLCC? What are the odds of recognizing your primary school classmate while shopping in Suria KLCC? What are the odds that your primary school classmate recognizes you while shopping in Suria KLCC? For some freaky reason, we managed to recognize each other. We actually remembered each other's name too. I was so chubby back then, wonder what gave me away. My phoenix eyes? He quickly got my number and added me into a What's App group of old school mates. Horror of horrors? Well, it wasn't that bad. However, I was the only Chinese fella in there. Started trying to remember all the old names. Dug out old class photos. Did the express catch up. Most of them were married with kids except for my head boy. He's still single, sports K-pop hair and likes to run. Still as fair as I remember him with some Japanese blood running in him. Perhaps he's gay, but I've yet to make any conn...

Today marks the 9th year KH and I joined our hearts together. From not knowing much about each other we learned how to read each other's moods. From being insecure and jealous we became trusting. From being a single entity we started sharing all we had. From just the two of us we surrounded ourselves with caring friends. From cuti-cuti Malaysia  we explored the world together. From sugar-coated sex to graduated to something more primal. From an LDR we progressed to living in the same city. From the background, KH slowly eased to the foreground of my family life. From boyfriends we progressed to hubbies ( nearly got married! ).  I love you baby.

Note: A topic triggered by Nicky. I don't remember when I started having di s, but I think it was some time in 2008. For some reason, some people look up to me as their gor . I had a whole collection so to say. Not that I was collecting, but I somehow managed to get a following of sorts. First and foremost was Joe . He identified himself as the President of My Di Association. Then there was Kenzon who got me acquainted with Rich who was his boyfriend. There was also Chester and Jase. With Jase, there was a connection to KT my mei  and PluBoy. Did I leave anyone out? But I really wonder what that means to be someone's gor . How big of an did impact did we make in each other's lives? Did I dispense sagely advice? Was I their rock in a tumultuous sea of gay drama? Was I always there for them? Did they look to me for direction in life? Was I someone for them to manja  with? Or was it just a taken social connection just for the heck of it? Today, my  di s have all g...

Recently we discovered that our colleague was chasing after a girl. I shall refer to him Stump because that's the feeling I always get when I talk with him. A very socially-awkward fellow. His relationship seems to be a complicated affair because after so many months he couldn't confirm the status. Here's an excerpt of a conversation he had with another colleague I shall call PointBlank, a mother of two: PointBlank: You went on a Singapore with her? Stump: Uhmm.... Yes. PointBlank: You paid for everything? Stump: Uhmmm.... Hotel, flight tickets, Universal Studio tickets.... PointBlank: Nearly everything la. Stump: Uhmmm... Yes. PoitBlank: Did you hold her hand? Stump: Uhmmmm... Yes. Only in Singapore. PointBlank: Har? She won't allow you to hold her hand in KL? Stump: Uhmmm... Yeah. She says I'm not smart enough to be introduced to her friends. Perhaps later when I'm smarter and make more money than her. PointBlank: WTF?! She's playin...

Just some two weeks back, a colleague of mine lost control of her car on MEX highway while tackling a bend in the rain. Her cute little Hyundai i10 swerved from left to right after hitting her brakes. She lost control of the brakes and the steering wheel. When her car finally came to a halt, it was inches from the railing. Thankfully, no other vehicles were involved in that incident and she was not hurt, only shaken. That should have prompted me to have my tyres checked. It happened to me while I was driving home on a rainy night. Like her, I was manoeuvring a bend and when I hit my brakes, I could immediately feel my car moving forward faster than I intended. There was no way to steer. The car just lunged head on to the pavement. The moment my car hit the pavement, the steering unlocked and it rebounded to the outer lane. I regained control and drove back to the left lane, without missing a beat. I knew I was very lucky that there were no cars beside me at that moment. I continued t...

In the United States of America, the Supreme Court ruled by a 5-to-4 vote on Friday that the Constitution guarantees a right to same-sex marriage. Although in another continent, this landmark ruling caused a huge reaction in Malaysia with my FB stream cumming six colour rainbows the whole day! And its great to see even straight friends showing their support. No union is more profound than marriage, for it embodies the highest ideals of love, fidelity, devotion, sacrifice, and family. In forming a marital union, two people become something greater than once they were. As some of the petitioners in these cases demonstrate, marriage embodies a love that may endure even past death. It would misunderstand these men and women to say they disrespect the idea of marriage. Their plea is that they do respect it, respect it so deeply that they seek to find its fulfillment for themselves. Their hope is not to be condemned to live in loneliness, excluded from one of civilization’s oldest instit...

At the end of February, I was the designated driver to mum's charity event at SJK(C) Chung Kwo. Exactly one year ago, I went to the same school on a wild goose chase . Once bitten, twice shy. This year, I got there with no fuss and even found a good parking spot. The organiser had given the Spring Single Mothers Association one table, so I was there to fill the space. Every year, this Christian association organizes a huge charity lunch for the needy. There were goodie bags at each table and an 8-course lunch by Restaurant Sheng Hui , a caterer from Sekinchan. Loads of performances ranging from song and dance to a testimony from an ex-paralympian. The emcee was Lim Ching Miau, the controversial plus-sized actress from two of Teresa Kok's "Onederful Malaysia" parodies. You would remember her as "Mrs. Jit". Currently she is promoting her movie "Kung Fu Taboo". As luck would have it, my dinner was also by Restaurant Sheng Hui . Mum and I were at...

Woke up bright and early on Saturday morning to have wantan noodles at Kong Kee . Mum decided not to go to OUG that day, so just grabbed a few items from the grocery stores in Puncak Jalil. On the way back home, stopped by at the playground where mum's friends were resting after their morning jog. Here's what transpired: Neighbour: So good that your son drives you around. My son is still sleeping! Moi: If you want, you can tumpang my car next time. Neighbour: Good, good. But I wish my son would be like you. So good. Still not yet have girlfriend ah? Go after my daughter la! Although someone is wooing her, I'll put in a good word for you! Moi: .................................. My mother just changed the topic. Phew. At noon, we went out to have lunch at Nihon-Kai . It was a full house that afternoon with a family even dining out on the pavement in the heat wave. Gratitude joined us. It was good as we had not had a proper meet up in months. He paid for lunch. Alw...