will i am's delayed diary

It has been six years since you kissed me in my car bathed by the garish lights of a nearby kedai mamak ( romantik sial ). I'm glad I answered "Yes".  Happy Anniversary, KH.

Bear , swiped from williamnyk on Flickr. A success story among the BFF seem to be Janvier and The Chief. They have made to sleeping under their own roof with seeming approval ( or lack of disapproval ) from their parents. A natural progression I guess, but not an easy task. I salute them. On Saturday night, SK, KH and I ( our first appearance as a couple after KH's return ) ventured to Setia Alam for their housewarming cum Christmas party. Basically three main groups-- The Chief's family, Janvier's boardgame kakis and the BFF. Food was exceptionally curry. Pre-packed nasi lemak with double curry chicken, roast turkey with cranberry sauce and assorted Malay kuih . The turnout was quite good, where one could even categorize it as a BFF reunion. Surprise guests AlexanderTheGay and CarpeDiem. Been ages since I saw them. And DanielH came sporting a half-done, still bloody tattoo covered under shrink wrap. A cool design of a cross surrounded by roses. Legolas was dressed in

Drawing Gears... , swiped from Heartlover1717 on Flickr. I'm definitely kinda stuck in LDR mode. Every time I meet KH, I seem to kinda blow my top. When I told this to QueerRanter, he was kinda shocked that I actually have a temper. Of course I do. Lurking behind my Cheshire Cat grin is a cauldron of boiling cum. Wakaka. Back to the issue of KH. For some reason, I get irked with KH for small, small reasons. Something he says. Something he does. All might push my buttons, spoiling the mood a bit. Think I'm being a bit unreasonable or impatient. Or I'm having unrealistic expectations. Although KH has the temperament of saint ( and I forget about things pretty quick ), I don't think I should test his limits. Gotta learn to a bit more tidak apa . Don't want trivial matters to become a big problem. "Tai si fah siew; Siew si fah mou!" In conclusion, I need to get my relationship gears lubricated and move into the next step!

Paxton and John , swiped from themaleimagesf on Flickr. Many people have asked me when my LDR will end. Truth be told I have no definite answer, so I just arbitrarily tell them, "2012 kwa...". I can only repeat what KH told me ( but he insists that he did not say 2012! ). For the first five months of 2012, I never saw any indication of KH's relocation back to Malaysia. And I never said anything to exert pressure ( but KH begs to differ! ). Just a few 'innocent inquiries' here and there during our conversation. Hehe. But recently, things seem to have shifted into high gear. He had contacted a head hunter and started distributing his resume to potential employers. Even managed to go for two interviews in KL! He has also started moving some stuff back home ( knowing what a big hoarder he is, he would most probably need at least six trips ). So far, he has not received any offers. But when he does, it will be another three months to serve his notice. To my surprise,

The Blues , swiped from nicholsphotos on Flickr. Moi: Baby, how did you sleep? Tired? KH: Feeling blue. Moi: Har... Why feeling blue? KH: Cause you're not by my side. Moi: Sorry baby... KH: Actually not blue la... auto-corrected from BLUR. Moi: Pheww!

connection Swiped from rent-a-moose . If you're reading this, you most probably live two lives. One~ flesh and bone. Blood and sweat. The other~ 1s and 0s. IE and Firefox. Truth be told, we feed quite a lot of our REAL lives into our digital lives. Much time invested into uploading our lives onto the WWW. Not quite Tron, but I'm sure we can get there some day. For me, both lives are important. Imagine IM-ing about everything under the sun, but clam up when meeting each other Imagine having animated discussions in person, but ignore each other in social networking sites and blogs Scenario 1 is definitely disastrous, but to me scenario 2 is also bad. In my opinion, we should try to connect with each other in all possible channels, not just stick to one. But I guess there are many people who are Cyberspace lurkers . They read and read and read. Stalk and stalk and stalk. But never make their presence known and never leave their thoughts. Or, there are people who rely